ugh...

It's been a long time since the tragedy and I still feel restless until now. I don't know if this is the after effect of all that has happened. I just feel tired and unable to move from my place. I think any place I go will never give me peace of mind. I think this has already became a part of me and the seed of bitterness began to grow bigger and bigger each day. I know this has to stop but I can't make it stop. It has a life of its own inside my body. I have to admit it's already eating me alive. No matter how I keep on rejecting this detrimental foolishness, it still resides in me, making me its permanent residence. This painful endurance is definitely not leading me anywhere. It just makes me more miserable. I think I can no longer handle any misery and bitterness in my life now. It's all too much.